I have some queries.......and some solutions also...

Some time it happens that we are in the situation where the confusion, frustration and all the negative energies meets and celebrate. This is the time when you are not at all able to go smoothly with all your "Chalta hai attitude". And then you decide to do something which is not brave which is sheer cowardic..which is a real shame to the human behaviour......

If you ever have a common though as i am discussing ....you can go through the test case i am prsenting to you. A common proble which we all feel ...and realize at some point of our life.

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Vivek: motte kua ker reaha hai...kuch suggestion do..i am feeling ajeeb sa..not feeling good..two reasons...

Padne main kai baar aisa lagta hai this is the palce i am not fit properly;'''...The qualoty which i was having or what i thought that i had in my college days...that is not even good.....enough to door ki baat ho gayi hai

i can not live with a slow and mediocre approach towards any work i am with.

so i am finding it tought to njoy it...i am not able to be the proactive here..chakkar ye hai ki..i am very much suffering from inferriority complex.....achha main dikhta nahi..acchi main angreji nahi bollta..programming mujhe aati nahi hai...GK main main achha nahi hun.....gaana main ga nahi sakta......naach main nahi sakta

:(...ab ye mat kahiyega ki main aap ko pakka raha hun...:(...if you can believe on me i am right..per plz kuch suggest kero

sandeep: kk.....I got the prob...never think some is better than u

Vivek: :(

sandeep: believe in urself

Vivek: how it is possible...man

sandeep: count ur positive points

Vivek: some one good like you is in forn t of me

sandeep: so wht

Vivek: how it is poosible that oyu belive that you are the best :(

sandeep: see tht many r not as good looking as i m so u ll feel better u hav a charming personality ha thoda ganja hai

Vivek: saale maje mat le i am serious main ..sucide ker sakta hun

sandeep: bt itna chalta hia...nahi ;le raha sale....tujhe achha feel karwa raha hun......regarding ur english its far 2 better than mine...

Vivek: saale main apni angreji se bada paersan uhn....GK se........peresaan hun

sandeep: wait

Vivek: GS se peresaan hun....Programming se persaan hun

sandeep: abe sun sale

Vivek: kahan gaya be....haan bata...:(

sandeep: abe GL a agaya tha.......abe tujhe aisa kabse lagne lag gaya

Vivek: jab se main marwah ke sath rahne laga...

sandeep: main to khud tere confidence ka deewana hhun.....

Vivek: jab se main banglore aaya...........jab se maine IB M join kiya........saale sab angrej ki chodain paida ho gayin hain.......

sandeep: pagal hai sale....sab bakwas hai

Vivek: saale main apna blog padhta hun ...fir doosre ka padta hun...........to main ker ta hia delet maar doun

:(

sandeep: pagal hai kya....sale English hi sab nahi hoti....meri to bahut gandi hai

Vivek: confidence to hoty hai be....

sandeep: ha hota hia....

Vivek: tery angreji aur to milke perfect hai..........saale

sandeep: but wo sab set ho jayega

Vivek: hope so.....

sandeep: abe hope so ki koi baat hi nahi hai.........sab ho hi jayega.......aur rahi Gk ki baat........to wo to paper padha kar magazines padha kar

Vivek: :(

sandeep: sale Ald wala n Muradabad wale Vivek ko yaad kar liya kar.....

Vivek: jab se NIT pahucha tab se choor ho gaya be........

sandeep: u ll feel better....

Vivek: koshish ker raha hun........saayad kuch sahi ho jaaye......:)

sandeep: abe aisa kya ho gaya ek dum..........bas abhi to sahi se training le.....

Vivek: haan wahi

sandeep: kisi ko kuch nahi aata.....

Vivek: nahi ais anahi hai.......dail routine main jab main rhytham nahi baitha patha hun logo0n ke sath

tab gusaa aati hai......

sandeep: abe jinhe ata hai thy r very less in nos.....

Vivek: ppl speaks so fluently ki i got absurd some time.........

sandeep: it happens....it happend so many times wid me.......sale tu to wahan sabse mil leta hai

thoda moral support to mil jat ahai.....

Vivek: saale to tujh se bhi to roj baat ho jaty hai...

sandeep: wht abt me...

Vivek: :(

sandeep: bt i m living...

Vivek: haan so to hai.......per to must hai be.........perfect type wala launda.....

sandeep: hr din yahi sochke jata hun ki aaj kuch achha hoga..........

Vivek: hoga be.....

sandeep: I m not perfect ...not at all....

Vivek: jaldi hi hum fir ek sath ek comp main chalegee.......

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Vivek: achhi wali

sandeep: :(

Vivek: jai mata di..........ab kya hua....to kyoun ro raha hai be

sandeep: hope so..........abe tu aise karega to mera to sara confidence hi khatam ho jayega..

Vivek: nahi be asia nahi hai.........hum sab sath main mast ho jaayenge.....

sandeep: so end of story is that we r gr8..we r gonna rock d world..........any how..so dnt wry.....chal ab main kuch khake aa raha hun......talk 2 u later......khush raho aabad raho.......:)..:) .... :)

Vivek: jai ho...k..TC

Mission fails .....Vision can not.....

This is something which looks like a more theoretical and philosophical thought. Though it is not. It is more practical than a theoretical saying but in first eye it looks like. I personally believe that some times we are so obsessed with the feeling that there is a north and south type of difference in between theory and practical. Because science says that hypothesis is not a practical thing.

Today we were busy enough to define the thin line difference between the hypothesis and practical approach. Why? Sorry it is a bit personal question. Though the reason is simple enough ...i am having the age of 25 and i am certainly transforming myself into the "Grahstra Aasram". So it is natural enough that i want a vision which i could have i was 18 but no sorry !!!!!!!!!! as it is always good to come back to the right path ....late than never.

Though we had defined the things earlier also ...but we were not professional then. We were having our personal problems along our way. But now we are free ....at least we thinks so . And it is right also....now there is an open sky in front of us ..we can fly if we want to fly....we can count the height and width of the world if decide. ..............................All depends.


But one thing about which i am sure is ...."Mission fails but vision can not". So what if we lost...in one game ...we are indians and we can make any game interesting even at the last moment....you can ask for the examples....take any thing...any thing like Indian cricket team .....you can lose even when all the batsman are waiting for there chance...you can lose even if you have to make one run and you have one over and 8 wickets.......you take Indian daily shops....hundreds of the time actor in them dies and reborn. .......you take Indian movies....you never distinguish between the hero and "super commando dhruv".

And this thought would make me charge again so that i can start the venture i dreamt once. I don't know the shape ...i don't know the size but one thing which i have is a dream, a vision and a promise. Which i have to kept alive.

Chak de Vivek.

Can u Believe !!!!!! My voice is silent

She sells, sea shells at the sea shore....
She sells, sea shells at the sea shore....
She sells, sea shells at the sea shore....

noooooooooooo nooooooooo this is not a tongue twister man this is the description that why i am silent. And this is not the only reasons. I have many more ...could be ...should be...would be .....and many more like this only.

I read from the "Tough time never lost....." that nothing is fixed nor the success nor the failure though it is not the first time i read but as this is the just next time and right time to quote it.
I don't know why the waves of such a negative thought ..... why the dying attitude to know More about the complexity in which i can blow....why the love to the unstoppable charm to be the perfect...but yes i am having all this and this i know is unstoppable.

Though i crossed all the limits of tough time which i usually believe was surrounded me when i was doing my Mtech and Btech and meanwhile when i was waiting for my posting. Then why this sense of nonsense fear? Does i really turned into the man who lives in a constant fear? Does i have some sense of insecurity ? Does i am the one who in search of excellence lost their presence ?

These are the questions which are much common to all those who seek the books written by "Shiv kheda, Robert H sculler" and many more motivational writer .

No i don't need for any motivational leader or a counsellor. All which i needed is a sound sleep, a great dream, a committed desire and a focused attitude. And then at the end of the day i too can say with the commanding voice that
"Tough time never lost but tough people do".

See you later.

First Independece DAY OF Job

Hi, Happy independence day to all. A great day in the history of India and so as in the history of mine. You must be amazed by hearing this but yes it is true. I am also same independent today as India is feeling. As today is the first day when i am in the office while everyone is njoying the vacation by their own ways. Though i am also enjoying the same vacation with a different style.

You know i used to feel that for me things are different and difficult also. But one thing which i must say is that, i used to get into the challenges which realizes me the same..non dying attitude of Indian. Now a common deception comes into the mind what the crap this simile is but no my friend it is a truth. Getting into the computer science branch made my two years in MNNIT more challenging than wining the mount Everest and the same happened then after when i get into the JAVA competency of IBM.

Though one thing which i must have to change is that, i have to make myself enough distant from the ppl who used to get into me and with whom i used to get into. This will make me two way comfortable, at one end i will get time for me and at the other end i will save much of my energy. And it maintains the truth of the old saying that closed book is much more expensive than the open one.


Jai Hind ..Jai Bharat

Finally IN the IBM

So guyssssssss..
Let's cheersss togather as i got the place to settle down finally as i have the right place to live. Though i know it is tough to sustain here but ok. Let's see how much tough they are ? One thing which i must say is i am going to be the good one as per the programming is in concern.

The very first they had taken one test "Algorithm". And the result was expected as i know i am all out. And today hopefully we will get the good things, just crossing our fingers. I am saying us because of the other friends of mine.

Al last the words whcih are making us sustained here "Jai mata di, Let's Rock".