Every time i have a excuse

I don't know why but i am having this , every time i have my emotions like a full pack of wine which tells me that either dance with me or let the study go out of your bounds.In the evening i was a clear cut excuse for the study as a day later the micro controller session are due but suddenly an idea changes my day ........that ............think if you become a patriarch then what happen ,ya! surely then your looks appear some where else , your voice appear somewhere else and your hole existence will get a copy of yours, and this idea catch's up mind for the rest of day and night
and then no more "NIGAHAIN NIGHAON SE MILA KAR TO DEKHO".

What it was ! and Why it was!

Can u tell me