IBM : A reharshal .....

Though today i can say it again that i got two jobs one which i have already TCS and the other one whcih i had cleared twice is IBM though the happiness is again half as we dont know when we have to join like many others and unlike many others .. as few from other colleges got the joining also. SO the unpredicatablity still lies. And in the situation like this if you decide not to enjoy then i dont feel that anything wrong is in it. YOu want to make sure and then only you want to creat the Buzz so go ahead. But no people whom you count as your best budies they cant understand or partialy they dont want .....I cant say exactly but yes i have a Question in my mind can they imagine that what i am feeling when i am not having the joining date while eveyother is having, can they imagine that what i feeling that i am giving the test for the thing which i already achieved, can they imagine what i am feeling when i have to join in a company with the lower packg than that which was offered to us at the time of joining while all other has incremented the pay package, can they imagine that i have to sign a bond also which was no where in the context when i got through the company. No they cant as they dont want to think with this perspective, and yes why they should think, it is no where linked with them :( sad enough.
No idea what it is and who is wrong and what i have to do in this situation. I know some of my friends are not having job and they are in a worst situation that mine but god knows about them that something great can happen with the tomorrow as the opportunity they are having none is having.
So comparing with some one is again a wrong thing. The soul is should i really be responsive to these thoughts, should i really be the one who walks alone with all the good and bad things at his own eyes.
I cant say about others but can say to myself that "Vivek None has seen the futuer but the past says what Darvin said earlier "If you want to live fight and prove the worth otherwise go and get a deep sleep somewhere under the earth" and this is all about life."

Bday : A day of joy or a forthnight of terror

Hello fnd's,
I am writing this block just a day before my real b day :) as from last few day's i am living under the shadow of terror of B day bombs though i haven't given it to any body as much terrific ways as other used to adopt, still same sensation i am feeling for me and this intuition becomes the most unutterable ugly reality due to my UN matured behavior which i had shown yesterday nigh. But surely i don't know why i had lost the control over my nerves, may the nostalgia of predefined terror or the insecure feeling for my career. Whatever yesterday night was one of the biggest i had in my social panorama.

As such i never behaved as i did yesterday when i shouted unnecessarily on my fnd's as they were simply weighting my tempo and i got caught up. Though again i had made the situation OK but in this i had lost the stability of my night and i question came in my mind that why this much terror i have whereas this is the complete day of my dominance as today is my b day then why this simply culture of B day bums are terrifying me:


It's so simple to say that it's a simple culture of B day bums but it is certainly to through your legs with the rocket speed at the bumps of the B day boy recalling all your previous ramifications with him , mostly the bad ones, this simple kick becomes the symbol of authorized revenge and whatever the facial expression you will show after wards will thought as your acting to be saved.:) but the truth is that no body going to make you free as they all make you as wary as your age is .

By d way this will have a salutary effect when you afterward stands on your legs and then the real expressions came out that how much you loved by your friends...So as the victim of the day i have a question that what is Panacea for the loveliest tradition of b day bums.
let's see what will happen with me tonight ......hoping for the best and urging to the god pl z save me as tonight at 12 am everybody will become inconsistent with my buttock so pl z save me there.

"Many many happy returns of the day to you vivek" "Happy b day to you " "May god give you all the dreams as a realty which you are seeing every night".