For someone with love:

जरा सी सांस कम होगी तुम्हारे दूर जाने से ....
मेरी आवाज कम होगी तुम्हारे दूर जाने से ......

तुम्हें एहसास मुमकिन है न होजं इतनी मोहब्बत का .....
बहुत सी आँख नम होंगी तुम्हारे दूर जाने से ...

मिले दो पल हंसा कर चल दिए यूँ बेवफाई से ...
हंसी सब भूल जायेंगे तुम्हारे दूर जाने से ....

ये सपना था, हकीकत थी, मुझे इस से नहीं मतलब ..
ख़ुशी की रात कम होंगी.. तुम्हारे दूर जाने से.....

वो हर एक बात पे हँसना हँसाना गुन गुना जाना....
कहाँ ये बात होगी अब तुम्हारे दूर जाने से ......

चलो तकदीर में इतना सही इतना मिला हमको ....
हमें मत भूल जाना तुम मगर यूँ दूर जाने पर......

My Girl and My Girl Friends..Mery vidhaniyaan

Many times i thought of putting this idea on my page .... but don't know why i stopped myself... may be the fear that i will loose something, may be something else... but today when i am over pouring my self with the emotions of my love for my girl i am putting some of the vibes of my emotional and girly life.....

From the childhood only my dream was never of becoming a doctor or engineer or anyone having great post or something. But on the contrary i always wanted a friend and being very specific i wanted a girl friend as i always afraid that "Kahin aisa na ho jaaey ki saari khoobsoorat ladkiyaan kisi na kisi ke sath engage ho jaayain" so due to this fear only this dream always had the most influential backup. If i am not wrong i realized this first time when i was only in class 5th. There was one girl "Riya" whom i consider as my first crush. And the reason why i realized that was came to my notice when i left the college and in the consequence i wrote my first poetry. Which was basically a parody .. still the romance and fantasy rolls up in my life. And from the onward i always tried to focus on the one who can be the best suitable one for my life which would be going to begin after 12 or 13 years.

Then the second big crush came when i saw her during my college competition of Debate and she came second and fortunately i came first. Her name was "------". This crush remains like this until today. Sometimes even today when i go by the same way she supposed to live i wonder that my eyes are looking and my heart is praying to god for her one glimpse.

Then the third and the finest came when i proposed her "My college junior". But the same result as the proposal was so unromantic that all my theory of romanticism got vanished up. And the result is that even today .. people used to call me the man of failure. Though i know i am still looking to see her so what if she is engaged or something. Friendship was the thing for which i proposed her and i still have the same option open. And this is the soul reason that when ever i pass through "BTM" my eyes giggled to look for her.

And finally my girl came into the picture whom i never proposed neither she did.. but our thoughts, emotions. choices everything got glued up and then only we come to know that ya... this is what i was looking for. Today When she is looking so gorgeous, so beautiful, so cute, and so..[i know that i am not having words to describe] i am missing her. I know everyone in the crowd will be looking at you but from each and every eyes only i am seeing you jaan. No one else in the world has right to see you as i am seeing you, as i am feeling you. Jaan you know this is the night when for each and every moment i am feeling that i am away from you, as i am dying for you, as i am no one without you, so incomplete, so absurd, so fade and what else. This is you who are making me colourful. This is you due to whom i can laugh, i can confidently live and survive. I am missing you jaan more than any other day ... i know you are busy... i know you are missing me too ... but jaanu aaj kasam se bilkul bhi man nahi ker raha hai ki main ek pal bhi rahun tumhare bina.. as it is like walking on the dark road with the fearful voice of wind and cloud. And i can't tackle.

Jaanu .... i am waiting for you. I know that even my try for the nap is not going to help me as i am putting you in my and then i am here but you please make it sure to come back soon. As i know that you too are missing me more than anything.


Love you jaan.