Life–> I am searching you …..

No..no..no Dont expect it as a philoshiphical or spritual or mental post [:P]. As i dont want to put you in the truma of tough sessions like yoga or something. I just wanted to know more that why i encountered a problem with the thought “That —> Life is something which i am searching and i am not sure about the success of my search”. I really hate whenever i think or work around google. Obviously yaar how smart a software it is, searches all along the web thousands and sometimes millions of pages related to life and concepts…. jai ho baba “Larry Page ki”. And at the other end there is me who even from past 25 yrs searching for the basic facts of life…..

1. What is the aim we are living.

2. Why the situation some time becomes so worst that we are unable to tackle them.

3. why blah blah blah….

So why…shuldn’t my dreams get frustrated enough to commit whatever ppl say as suc-ide [:)].

This is i hope the solo reason why some time ppl get settled with the compromised attitude and life style and believe that this was a god hand written rule and we can’t help it.

Then suddenly i realizes that ok all well …but do i really have the passion to know about the life..and if yes then i have a check list…..ans this:

1. Who are you?

2. What is the objective you have?

3. And what for your dreams comprises?

$. What you really want to be.

6. A specific punch line for you.

And i can bet on this that many of us or better to say 9.9 out of 10 will not be able to ans half of them, and rest i never count the exceptions like….”Every time a safe sex is not safe” [:P].

jokes apart…

So do we really search for the things we admire, we dream and if not ……wait…..wait….don’t say that this is similar to commitment. Believe me this is much more than commitment. This is a real interview of yours with the have and have nots of you possess.

Can you still say that you have the dying attitude to know about the life…..same as what Bindra was having when he shooted the birds eye.

And if you have the ans for this then the topic is no more boring for you ….you got the light ..cherish it..live it.

And say proudly——>>>>>>>> “Dreams I Am Coming”.

Ab Mujeh Badalna hai ……..

This is not because i am sad with my present status or something. This is because ppl are suggesting me to make myself as local as “Cutting in mumbai”, or “Dossa and Idali in south”.

I also dont want to change myself neither due to the reason that musraff left pakistan vergin nor due to the reson that leftist again want to pull the congress down.

The solo reason is this that some times “Chaay with band makhaan is much more adorable than the Cappachino in McD, the so called bhandaara plalce for middel age working group”.

As i told this i just want to know that why ppl are so concious and obsessed with the single cup of cocke in Mcd with the price of 45rs than the 1/2 lt of cock bottel in the dhabba shop just aside the door…they simply want to carry the brand or they want to carry some…”Crispy and crunchy voices,looks , images, birds…..whatever….”. Plz do reply hann ? :) .

Haan to main kya kah raha tha ……ya, sach main i tried a lot to overburden myself with the tough language criteria and grammar type of things which no where making me the replication of my own self.

So i vivek tiwari with full of my hosho hawaas and presence of my mind taking an oth that now onwards i will not sell the samosa packed in a wrapper bole to i will put the creativity not the language.

God Bless me.

i [miss] or mess my college days

Don’t feel bad and not surprised even …plz….yaar mery life hai if i am feeling it then kya hua. Nothing na. But yes this is true. Though i don’t know how much you agree with me and how many of you disagree (concentrate on much and many ;-) . Seriously whenever i recall then i got few lines running behind me like “micca running behind rakhi sawant” and out of those few were like:

1. Xl ki kudiyaan wah wah bhi wah

2. Those were the best days of my life

3. Din bhar kaam nahi aaram…

3. Sabka kata hai … [Sorry i can not give you the link :-) ]

So does it means all were sweet enough to recall or there were something which i am hiding. Those cold and heated comments of Profs who used to say that i am one of the most useless channel of his class, or the opinion of my friends who used to say that i am a so prominent bugger that i can give classes to “Raju Srivastava”.

The green park of our college which must be abusing us for digging and eating all the greenery like Buffalo,

The broken windows of every class where we stay for more than 1 day,

Every bench of the library which are still the manuscript of all the love and lovers and various uncensored dialogues which Nagesh kukunurr must love for his next movie,

and moreover anything…

The staircases of the college which are red colored not due to the sincerity of college management but due to the voluntarily mouth wash of my guttka loving fnds,

and how can i forget my hostel which was the best example of change:

you come at 9 o clock morning it is like an uncensored movie, ppl with and without cloths are trying to bath, to dress, to impress, to hide…..and many more.

you come at 12 o clock in the noon…… we are the morons, can eat anything……..and hygiene: ……….from where this world came to dictionary?….. ….i hope my hostel is not the right ans.

you come at 6 in the evening ……i can bet that Olympics can get many new champions and many new games to play and to include in list of games they formally have.

you come at 12 in the night …uffffffff this is not the right place to describe , we are hiding the things in the closed rooms and hearing everything with the earphone which we usually and casually use for secret reasons ;-) .

and hell ! you come at 3 o clock in the night …..and then you will realize that we have a call center office at each of the building floor near the staircase, the flower pot, the balcony and our sincerity employees are busy in different type of ascent and facial expressions in solving the customers problems [i hope you can understand that who are the customers]……but don’t ask.. :-) what and who are the customers ?

Finally the morons are on the bed.
And while sleeping i am realizing that i had lost those days when reality means dreams and dreams were beautiful. I can’t say that do i really miss or do i really messed my college days. But one thing about which i am pretty sure is I really loved my college days.

Friends orrrrrrrr FRI-> ENDs

Let’s discuss some of the thing which we really don’t want to discuss. What friends means to us and how we can fight for this word.

PPl who live arround you with the all the sharing of good and bad feelings are your friend …?

ppl with whom you shares all the secrets and nonsecret things are your friends…?

ppl who proves his worth with the puchline “A friend in a need is a friend indeed” are your friend..?

or ppl who really care about you and never shows the feelings through the word are your friend…?

None can define the exact, and precisely it is not possible. Indeed. Then why this word is lossing his worth and meaning i dont know about you but in genral cases and i am not saying this about me even, touchwood that i have good fnds deep inside me.

Why a fnd is worried about his fnd’s success, in negative senese..?

Why a fnd used to know about the progress of his fnd again in the gray shades..?

Why a fnd is happy but not in the same context as he or she should be, when his so called best fnd achives something great..?

I don’t know but yes i can say that all the relation is in trouble if this is a reality which modern genration is going through …And if success is realtive and the only parameter of having fnd’s and makind fnd’s then i must say that there is nthg wrong if above all lines are applicable to you or to your fnds. As this is the mandatory thing which must be fallowed by we all to have the Demo of fndship.

High School D Musical: A Bridge of Multiple Personalities

Who said that you can never have more than one target at a time, who said that at one time eyes are seeing only a single dream.No not at all dream as i already tried to explain by myself is sth which comes from your passion and executes through the determination you are having. So no matter that at a time you are having one or more the thing which is of the importance is that how you had manged the time you required and you have. You can be great a singer but at same time you want to be a good writer then? Do you need to kill one of your own dream which makes you live and gives you courage to fight with this world for your own sanctity of truth and emotions. No the movie symbolizes the same that if your passion is true and the path you are fallowing is right then the day is not for away when people will say that yes this is the fellow who has done all the things together with the same importance and zeal. And here the passion is sth which come from your inner soul and the pressure you feel to show the world that you are living not simple because of you are living but rather for making your living a milestone for other.

So finally i can say that the moral of the story is “Timing is the ingredient which along with the passion and commitment can execute n no of dreams togather if you are faithful for each one

Why you are thinking negative when you are dreaming positive

The billionaires often scared of, poor often worried and mediocre often thinks of defeat even then they all dreams for the peak. Why this contradiction take place. Why your dreams are not making you powerful even they are making you weak, why? Reason is simple you are not a dreamer as there is a famous saying “Dreams are not which you see while you sleep, Dreams are something which never let’s you sleep until they realized” you are simply a passer by of thoughts who see and forget. True enough. Question which is arises now is why people can’t make a right decision in between these to thing’s their dreams and their work? Who stops them? And what makes them nostalgic?

Ans of each of the question is simple and straightforward “Lack of passion”. Though we all see it but each is not having the same passion for it neither all having same do or die attitude so either they forget it or they make a memoir of it so that in future they can say proudly that it was also my dream so what if i was coward enough to make it true now my successor’s will live it for me. Bull shit.

Friends either don’t see it or plz make it true because i am not going to see anybody living any body Else’s dream. As this is the complete debacle of ones own creativity and thoughts. So either have the guts so that you can realize it or live the simple life of eat drink and be marry. There is no need to be the one who dreams the future.

Destiny: A personal definition

Destiny refers to a predetermined course of events. It may be conceived as a predetermined future, whether in general or of an individual. It is a concept based on the belief that there is a fixed natural order to the universe.

This definition may be help you when you want to give debate on this topic as this is as concrete as the concrete itself and life is not always concrete. :-)

Some times it happens that you don’t know what life is all about. It is smooth as you can’t believe sometimes and it is zigzag as you never want to see that phase again and this might be possible that you met with a situation where you feel that ohh!! crap what the hell is this and what next? And here the decision which you takes to survive in that time is the overall replication of your efforts, your dreams and your capabilities. And then we can say destiny plays it’s role.

So destiny is the mixture which comes into the concern when your dreams met with the commitment, loyalty, and hard work along with the right guidance and motivation of your near and dear ones. The last few of words of last line were quite obvious and difficult also. Indeed people can have everything, they put all efforts with full zeal, nut’s still they never stand what is Destiny? This is because the don’t have right guidance and motivation of their near and dear one’s, mind it.

So don’t search here and there if you want to know that why you being made for, what is your destiny and why? All these answers are quite simple and obvious and you can get it very easily. Just make the environment as i thought and explained above.

From India to Japan: A journey

I hope this topic does not require any introduction. As the person about whom i am talking is implicit. Yes he is none other than the " Plan Man of Our Group".

Before i start writing it i have a moral as well as legal warning for you guys that all the thoughts are fictitious and there is no link in between the lines written here to any of the living or nonliving objects :) . If any resemblance is found then it will be treated mere as a coincidence.

So the story begins like this:

This was summer of 2002, more hot, more lethargic and more tough than any other summer. Sun was like the booming economy of India. As the time passes from morning 9 am to 12 am, so as the share market grows up to the unexpected height and so as the heat produced by the sun. May be both were competing with each other or may be India was heading towards the economic reform and the atmoshperic deform. Any thing.

Same year few fresh minds were destined to meet, to collaborate, to vacillate and for lot's of other task together. Place was moradabad . A place which was well know for the communal disharmony, which was well known for the Green Belt of farming it had and more over any thing if a say in one word it is city of brass. Yes this was BRASS CITY MORADABAD.

At the outskirts of this place which was newly developed .... with the ambiance of River RAMGANGA which is some how linked with the holy river ganga. With the fragrance of all greenery and the belt of wheat and mustard there was one place which was neither enough old nor new but OK this was good.. as all those who failed for IIT's thinks this can be the next place from where they can jump and they can again get there safe future. Yes this was MIT Moradabad. A 1996 estd college. College was having good repo in all the private colleges and was a good destination in between Delhi and Lucknow the two hubs of education.

They all were fresh enough to sing the song "Aankhon main sapne liye ghar se hum chal to diye" and this way the story begins though this was the huge crowd as doing an engineering was no more a specific course to be done it was mere a status symbol to attain so many of those who wanted to do a simple graduation for the shake of their family status opted for engineering and thus the crowd was divide in two one Hostalids and other one Localids. The line which i mentioned couple of heights above is more applicable to the second group. Though after joining the college life both the groups were having the same aims same thoughts and same dreams. Ya in some cases those were amplified and in some cases not amplified but OK. Now everyone of them wanted to be THE ENGINEER.

In this crew of 2500 students there was one fellow who was similar to Buffalo {if you talk about look}..... similar to Shiv Khera if you talk about thoughts {Note : I don't like shiv khera} ... similar to Saif Ali Khan of "Dil Chahta Hai " {if you exclude the wealth saif was having though the movie was not released until then }...... Similar to many unwanted disease which you never ever imagine for you. But a big butt :P he was a good Friend of liquor group, smoker group, and all other banned group of hostel. He was the first servant of the most notorious grand senior of our batch. He was the only one who been allotted a room not with us but with grand Seniors. So many unwanted, undesirable and unimaginable things happened to him in a very first year. I cant say much about these consequences with which he met but yes my opinion for him was that he is spoilt bread and in one line i say i hated him in first due to various reasons. Which i explained above.

But how come it affects him if he is the protongonist of the story so ... in the very first year what he did in the college was more indulging in the activity which i mentioned more grouping, more investment in terms of time and money to the group and :) and gossiping.

Sorry but i am not able to control my feelings about him and if i say that somebody if then would have come to me and ask what you say about his perforamnce .. i must said that he is going to be zero. But neither others nor the god has given a shit to my predictions and he was among the toppers in my batch. So this was the first success he got and by the end of the year few things which being genralized for him was as under:

1. He is good in planning.
2. He is good in partying.
3. He is good in team.
4. He is good in Cricket.
5. He has a best group of mit as a friend circle.

So above was the first year. And great achivements. Bravo. Mr. PlanMan.

This is a unanimous believe that second year brings a 3 fold swing to the first year students and same happened. Those who were the entrants in the notorious group became the shotters of that groups and the group was having there name on them. Which resulted in n number of Deciplinry action against him and other members means the guy who was just a beginner became the leader thanx the authorities and here comes the real realtion between me and the Hero of the story. Everytime anything wrong been done in the hostel or in the college or any where there few culprits which were undoubtly captured and fortunately me and the hero was among them. Though the reasons being in the same natorious group which i hated earlier was different but the result was same and the outcome of the result was a bond in between me and the "Buffalo". And this way we started our professional cum personal joint vanture. Here if i will not mention few names then the story will be a shear fake so here it comes ....the cast and the crew of MIT moradabads notorious cum famous cum admirable group:

amitesh, divas, divakar, kohsheen, ashish batra, amraendra pandey , bipin bajpee, vivek tiwari, anurag soni, dheeraj singh. Though my name should be the last in the group :P but as i am a writer so i can put it in the middle or front or any where which i feel comfortable.

So by the end of the second year we all had set a history which i hope some times people of Ram Ganga Vihar, Harthala, Line Paar, Amar Ujjala News paper, Dean and EC HOD office, MIT Football ground used to mesmerize and neighbours of MIT Boys Hostel used to memorize specially "Tilak bhavan's " Front and side neighbours. :P For our extremely social affairs.

So the hero celebrated his second year of engineering. and became the 50% engineer in 2004.

Mission fails .....Vision can not.....

This is something which looks like a more theoretical and philosophical thought. Though it is not. It is more practical than a theoretical saying but in first eye it looks like. I personally believe that some times we are so obsessed with the feeling that there is a north and south type of difference in between theory and practical. Because science says that hypothesis is not a practical thing.

Today we were busy enough to define the thin line difference between the hypothesis and practical approach. Why? Sorry it is a bit personal question. Though the reason is simple enough ...i am having the age of 25 and i am certainly transforming myself into the "Grahstra Aasram". So it is natural enough that i want a vision which i could have i was 18 but no sorry !!!!!!!!!! as it is always good to come back to the right path ....late than never.

Though we had defined the things earlier also ...but we were not professional then. We were having our personal problems along our way. But now we are free ....at least we thinks so . And it is right also....now there is an open sky in front of us ..we can fly if we want to fly....we can count the height and width of the world if decide. ..............................All depends.


But one thing about which i am sure is ...."Mission fails but vision can not". So what if we lost...in one game ...we are indians and we can make any game interesting even at the last moment....you can ask for the examples....take any thing...any thing like Indian cricket team .....you can lose even when all the batsman are waiting for there chance...you can lose even if you have to make one run and you have one over and 8 wickets.......you take Indian daily shops....hundreds of the time actor in them dies and reborn. .......you take Indian movies....you never distinguish between the hero and "super commando dhruv".

And this thought would make me charge again so that i can start the venture i dreamt once. I don't know the shape ...i don't know the size but one thing which i have is a dream, a vision and a promise. Which i have to kept alive.

Chak de Vivek.

Can u Believe !!!!!! My voice is silent

She sells, sea shells at the sea shore....
She sells, sea shells at the sea shore....
She sells, sea shells at the sea shore....

noooooooooooo nooooooooo this is not a tongue twister man this is the description that why i am silent. And this is not the only reasons. I have many more ...could be ...should be...would be .....and many more like this only.

I read from the "Tough time never lost....." that nothing is fixed nor the success nor the failure though it is not the first time i read but as this is the just next time and right time to quote it.
I don't know why the waves of such a negative thought ..... why the dying attitude to know More about the complexity in which i can blow....why the love to the unstoppable charm to be the perfect...but yes i am having all this and this i know is unstoppable.

Though i crossed all the limits of tough time which i usually believe was surrounded me when i was doing my Mtech and Btech and meanwhile when i was waiting for my posting. Then why this sense of nonsense fear? Does i really turned into the man who lives in a constant fear? Does i have some sense of insecurity ? Does i am the one who in search of excellence lost their presence ?

These are the questions which are much common to all those who seek the books written by "Shiv kheda, Robert H sculler" and many more motivational writer .

No i don't need for any motivational leader or a counsellor. All which i needed is a sound sleep, a great dream, a committed desire and a focused attitude. And then at the end of the day i too can say with the commanding voice that
"Tough time never lost but tough people do".

See you later.

Kal Ho Na Ho

I usually heard from my papa that when ever you are happy you do one job again and again and the same i am doing, though i don't know that why i am happy but as i am doing one job again and again so this proves that i am happy some how. So presently nature of mine is to see movies everyday and today i am back on track with the great and super hit Indian melodrama of love and affection "Kal Ho Na Ho ".

Certainly this is the movie which makes you sensational with every moment of it's change.The clear cut impact is on your heart which makes you enough powerful to bear the toughest challenge of your life and that is none other than "To defeat the death".And surely the title track tells the ambitious truth about life "Kal Ho Na Ho".


Salute to you Sharukh Mayur khan.You are really the best and apart from this movie is best at every aspect of it whether it is a technical one or any other area of evaluation, it is untouched.
So go fida with the movie every time you see it and if till than this moment you are only the listener then plz go and watch :Life is waiting for you.

The Shawshank Redemption

So in this movie week i had completed one more sky touching movie with the tag line "Hope is something which makes you driven so there is nothing official about it" and the movie was none other than "The Shawshank Redemption".I am not fasicinating about the structrue they had shown in the movie but the story line up it is having is really the one which tells the real way to make one's destiny by themselves only.


Here you can say that i am biased also as there is nothing like a big role or smaller one in such type of great movies which puts such a vast impression in the society.Movie clearly indicates that if you Dare to dream then there is nothing like impossible to make them a realilty.And that's what the protongonist has done.Twenty years he took to make the canel with an axe of mare 5 inches, salute to the patient he was having. Certainly it proves that all the big deal can be formalized by the great patince only.